Dah 1 year seyyy

Assalamualaikum.

Wahhhhh dah 1 year sey kawin! Feeweet! Selamat pengantin baru, eh salah, selamat anniversary to both of us!

Dulu zaman ITE, aku tak pernah tau si Qiey ni wujud. Pastu bila time poly, dia mentel add aku kat msn sebab konon kawan kita 1 ni, Ikin, suka forward forward emails & kebetulan email aku selalu 1st so dia main add. Tak malu sey. Muahahahah!!!

Abeh dah add kan, mesti ah aku nak tau siapa. Dia kasi gambar pun, aku tak cam. Tap tup, ekhem, dahhh berpacaran. Then tunang then nikah. We didn't drag long for our relationship. Early 2008 kenal, late 2009 tunang, late 2011 nikah, 09/10/11. Alhamdullillah everything was planed by Him, nicely.

Moga pernikahan kita berkekalan hingga ke, yes you are right, Jannahtul Firdaus. May we keep guiding each other to the right path & may Allah keeps showering us with sakinah mawaddah warahmah. Ameeeennnnnnnnnn!!!

Wassalam.

P/S And of course doas from our loved ones are greatly appreciated. Terima kasihhh!!

Aku masih kurus!

Assalamualaikum.

Compare diri aku dulu dengan sekarang, aku can't deny that aku gained alot of weight. From the cheecks to the tummy to the bum. Ohhhhh yes!

Aku actually do prefer the weight i'm carrying now TETAPI masalah nyerrr, those fats goes to the wrong place! If you know what i mean. Kalau they go to the correct place, confirm plus chop badan aku macam Miranda Kerr. Or infact, org ingat Miranda Kerr yang ikut badan aku. Tapi tu semua "KALAU". Fact is, aku boncit.

Ni belum ada anak, kawan aku dah kacau aku "tu dah brapa bulan?" Kong ajiak Sue. Ada pulak cakap "Eh perut kau stoppit eh Anz" *stares at Rin*

Aku tak whining jer eh. I do something to make myself look better seperti jogging BUT aku dah tak pergi sejak bulan puasa that time. Kata nak start balik, tak start start. Bahahaha!!

FYI, gi jogging bukan for keeping myself in shape jer tetapi for also keeping myself fit. Tak semestinya orang kurus taklei exercise per. Apa? Aku masih kurus what?!

*look at self* Aku masih dalam golongan orang kurus k. Cuma dulu aku kudut. You see the difference? Hahahaa denial eh! Aku dulu kudut sampai ex aku & his friends panggil aku Papan. Klaka per?! *tumbok*

Ok ok orang nak panggil aku gemok, aku boleh accept TETAPI kalau orang cakap "Eh kau dah macam kakak kau", tu part gua taklei accept man!! Hahahaha!! Yes memang kita adik beradik, muka sama i can't deny, tapi please eh, dia 3 kali ganda aku. Rilekkkkk sudah! Or maybe 4? Hahahaha!!

"Eh bulat nyer kau sekarang? Iyer lah dah kawin kan, dah bahagia" Oh clichè! Stoppit eh! Abeh dulu aku tak bahagia ah? *jeling tajam* Hahahahaha!!

To conclude, pipi aku plus perut plus punggong all naik sebab, iyer lah sekarang kan aku selalu bake, kemungkinan besar tu baking power stuck kat tempat-tempat tu sebab tu makin naik. Ni cerita benar, bukan rekaan semata-mata. Tak payah pakai botox nyah!

Wassalam.

The fickle woman!

Assalamualaikum.

This is a very open heart blog post i must say. And pretty confusing. Wana know why? BECAUSE I AM A FREAKING FICKLE WOMAN. Hahahaa ok read on and you'll know what I'm trying to say.

This photo attached here in this post is THE reason why i'm NOT ready to be a mom. Please don't judge. Hahaha! And of course there are other reasons besides this naivë thinking. Other reasons which i shall not point out.

Ya ya whenever i see those married women who are pregnant makes me wana get pregnant too. Especially when they are my friends. I can't deny. BUT the next second, i'll say "Eh taknak ah! Bukan senang jadi mak."

Then last month, my menses was one week late. I pray to God that i'll be pregnant BUT the next second, i hope it is just a false alarm & hope my menses will come soon.

When i checked with pregnancy test, it was negative. The 1st impression was "Alah tak pregnant lagik" and then the next second "Woohoo tak pregnant!" Seriously aku tak tau apa aku nak. Confusing kan?!

I wonder if i am the only woman who is like this or ada lagi other women that are as fickle as me? Kejap nak kejap taknak. Macam nak beli bag pulak. Ke beli kasut ke. Ke beli aper aper lah!

I know of these 2 women who actually doesn't wana get pregnant first but they got pregnant and then miscarriaged. THAT is what i'm afraid off. Guess that is the reason why God won't make me pregnant now?

Some people said that if you get pregnant, you will automatically be ready and blabla and yadayada. Well perhaps when the time comes. The time which comes laterrrrrrrr and not so soon. Heh!

Please don't tell my mom about this. She'll start to lecture me again and she'll buy me this & that for me to consume so i'll get pregnant. Gosh mom!

For a meantime, i shall improve myself to be a better ummah which i hope when i get pregnant (not soon enough), i'll be a perfect mom. Bi'iznillah.

Wassalam.

Family surpriseeeee!! =)

Assalamualaikum.

Aku complain kat Qiey that on my birthday, dia kerja pulak. Abeh kerja 1 shift jer takpe jugak, kerja 2 shifts eh! Its 3pm to 7am harap maklom. Abeh aku gi jer ah kerja. Nak apply leave pun wasted.

So semalam after work, went to my SIL's place. Selalu nyer gi rumah MIL tapi yesterday tuka location since my MIL pun nak gi sana.

Once reached, aku tengok asal macam banyak makanan eh. Abeh utensils byk colour pink pulak tu. lain macammmm jer. Aku dah suspect, mesti nak celebrate birthday aku. HAHAHA! Sekali bila tengah duduk-duduk, "Assalamualaikummmm!" HOMG tu suara my family members! Dan sesungguhnyer tidak shiak lagi, it was a surprise for me.

I am soooo touched & was trying sooooo hard to not cry hahaha!! I got so tired of smiling from ear to ear. Abeh happy sey, senyum jer ah. And then bila nampak the cake, hahahaha i smiled like a 4year old girl abeh tengok jer cake tu. And then bila receive the presents, Ya Allah irritating nyer suara aku!!

Thank you so much Qiey for organising the surprise. How can i not be thankful for having u as my imaam. Thank you to my family & in-laws for joining in the special occasion. Hahaha! And the foods & the presents. Happy sangatttt!!!

I got a Guess watch from my siblings. I got alotttttt of baking stuffs from my in-laws. I got a Happycall Pan from Qiey. Wa manyak happy wohhh!! (photos will be at Instagram)

May Allah keeps showering us with His barakah & keep our bonding as close as it is now. I heart everyone of you & i really pray that we shall all gather again in Jannah.

Wassalam.

P/S I'm typing this in the train & i got teary at the same time smiling to myself. I am a crazy birthday girl.

P/S/S Adik aku ingat aku nampak dia bila dia dekat bawah but i didnt notice him ley hahaha! Selenger!

P/S/S/S My boss is on leave. Woohooo!! Macam tau jer dia that aku taknak tengok muka dia on every 13th Sept. Last year dia hantar aku gi course hahaha!

Workivasary

Assalamualaikum.

Haiz kalau ikut perangai aku dulu, ni blog hari-hari ada post. Baca balik those old blogs of mine, reminds me of alot of things sey. Mana yang outburst pasal boyfriend, mana yang aku write movie reviews, mana yang aku merayap sampai ke Bangkok. So free lah?!

Anywayssss kalau that time aku ada tudungvasary, sekarang aku ada workivasary too. Hah! Aku actually nak bilang korang yang after 3 years working in Bescon Consulting Engineers Pte (since 1st September 2009), Alhamdullillah i have been promoted from M&E Drafter to M&E Design Drafter. Yeayyy!! That additional 1 word means alot I guess. Hahahahahha!!

I remember vividly macam mana boss aku marah aku sampai aku nak nangis. He even said "If you're not interested, you can find other job. Don't waste my time here". Waste his time tau, not my time. So selfish! Hahahah!!

Seriously, 1st year in Bescon was really tough. Macam kat boot camp bro! Boss aku asik carik pasal dengan aku. Boss aku tu bukan boss betul ah. Dia boss tak betol. LOL! No lah i mean dia Chief Drafter. Not a QP (if you know what i mean, for engineering line) pon cuma dia incharge of us drafters ah. Tapi dia apa kesah, Associate Directors yang pangkat tinggi dari dia pun dia boleh makan. Cuma our bosses (total now ada 7!) jer kalau dia bual, pijak semut pun tak mati!!

But without a doubt, actually orang dia okay ah. Aku tak cakap dia baik, dia okay jer. Out of 10, aku rate dia 2. Hahahahaha!! What?? I wanted to give 1.5 ok. I'm talking about his character. Kalau cakap pasal engineering line ni, he knows everything.

Enough of him. So the main point here is, aku survived 3 years here. Ikut kan hati, aku nak blah. Tapi ikut kan imaan, InShaAllah aku sabar & bersyukur. Yang penting, aku tak jual anggur. Sesungguhnya aku tahu Allah uji aku within my strength.

Wassalam.

P/S If it is not for him, aku tak print out doa mula kerja & end kerja & paste kat tepi aku agaknyer. LOL!

Treasure your loved ones

Death

Assalamualaikum.

Semalam aku melawat bestfriend aku, Mas, punya mama meninggal. Aku tengah ngaji on the way to work dalam train, handphone dalam bag vibrate. Aku rasa macam tak shiok. Aku tengok, nama Mas's husband, Aswad. Aku rasa makin tak shiok. At 1st Aswad cakap mama tengah nazak. Sekali the next minute, Aswad cakap mama dah pergi. Begitu jugak aku nangis dalam train. Orang depan, kanan & kiri aku terkejut & tengok aku macam aku ni alien.

Mama was sucha a strong woman but suddenly she was diaognised with pnuemonia & lungs infection. 2 & 1/2 weeks in hospital and then she came back to Allah, just like that. Innallillah wainnalillahi roji'un. May she be placed with pious people in this holy month.

Teringat aku that i lost 2 uncles in 2 Ramadhans. Within that year too, i lost another uncle so total i lost 3 uncles in a year. All are my mom's brothers.

Sedih tu memang sedih tapi setiap manusia yang hidup mesti meninggal. And aku tak boleh imagine losing my loved ones. Sebab tu sekarang aku treasure dorang sangat sangat. Biar lah bapak aku selalu lambat. Biar lah mak aku selalu bising. Biar lah siblings aku selalu irritating. Biar lah Qiey selalu snores (HAHA). Sebab kalau dorang dah takde, i'm sure i'm gona miss all that.

Kita tak pernah tau bila kita mati, macam mana kita mati, dekat mana kita mati tapi InShaAllah kalau kita menjaga aurat kita, Allah akan menjaga aurat kita jugak. Kalau kita orang yang baik, mesti kita meninggal dengan cara yang baik.

Yang penting, kita mesti sentiasa ready to face Him. Solat jangan ditinggalkan. Ngaji biar berlebihan. Puasa jangan yok yok. Donation biar generous. InShaAllah kita akan selamat.

Semua orang takut nak mati tapi tak semua orang takut dengan Allah. Wallahualam. #selfreminder

Wassalam.

Addiction!

Assalamualaikum.

I dont know what got into me now that i loveeee baking. Well i love baking from last time tapi sekarang is loveeee!! See the difference? Dulu love with 1 'E'. Now with 4 'E's. Loveeee!

It all started when this mentel girl aka Nisha, did those nutella blossoms. She shared with me the recipe & i tried. Little did i know, i got addicted.

So far i've done creampuffs, eclairs, scones, cookies, cakes, cakepops & cupcakes with different designs & taste. From red velvet to chocolate to vanilla. Alhamdullillah majority turned out great. And everyone who tried them, love them. Except for my annoying niece who said tak sedap because she's not a cake lover. Thanks eh! Terguris hati cik Ica! Nasib baik kau only 6 years old! Hahaha!

InShaAllah in time to come i'll bake more things like kuih raya (since raya nak dekat). But i dont have the time lah now. Maklom lah, bulan puasa ni nak buat banyak ibadah kan. Lol.

And macarons!! I've tried making it FOUR times but to no avail. Sadded. Takpe jangan give up! Must do it again & again & again & zzzz....

These pops (in photo) pun last minute buat sebab kawan aku 1 yang irrit, Faeza, cakap tekak dia rasa nak cakepop. 1 pun jadi ah dia cakap. Nasib dia baik i still have some in the fridge. So i melted some chocolates & dip in those colors. Abeh the cup color hijau ala-ala cakepop aku pakai skirt ah then the hearts are like ribbon. Cute eh! Bahaha!! Oh dont mind the toothpick, my lillipop sticks dah abes noh.

And i'm excited for an order for my friend for her sister's wedding. I have afew designs already!! Yippi!! InShaAllah they will turn out great too.

Kalau nak tengok more photos of my desserts, you can visit my FB under album "Hot Hot Heat" or Instagram #_anzbaking. Promote nampak haha!

Wassalam.

P/S Aku type ni draft bile tengah baring abeh handphone jatuh kat muka aku. Eh tak sakit ah, shiok! T___T