The fickle woman!

Assalamualaikum.

This is a very open heart blog post i must say. And pretty confusing. Wana know why? BECAUSE I AM A FREAKING FICKLE WOMAN. Hahahaa ok read on and you'll know what I'm trying to say.

This photo attached here in this post is THE reason why i'm NOT ready to be a mom. Please don't judge. Hahaha! And of course there are other reasons besides this naivë thinking. Other reasons which i shall not point out.

Ya ya whenever i see those married women who are pregnant makes me wana get pregnant too. Especially when they are my friends. I can't deny. BUT the next second, i'll say "Eh taknak ah! Bukan senang jadi mak."

Then last month, my menses was one week late. I pray to God that i'll be pregnant BUT the next second, i hope it is just a false alarm & hope my menses will come soon.

When i checked with pregnancy test, it was negative. The 1st impression was "Alah tak pregnant lagik" and then the next second "Woohoo tak pregnant!" Seriously aku tak tau apa aku nak. Confusing kan?!

I wonder if i am the only woman who is like this or ada lagi other women that are as fickle as me? Kejap nak kejap taknak. Macam nak beli bag pulak. Ke beli kasut ke. Ke beli aper aper lah!

I know of these 2 women who actually doesn't wana get pregnant first but they got pregnant and then miscarriaged. THAT is what i'm afraid off. Guess that is the reason why God won't make me pregnant now?

Some people said that if you get pregnant, you will automatically be ready and blabla and yadayada. Well perhaps when the time comes. The time which comes laterrrrrrrr and not so soon. Heh!

Please don't tell my mom about this. She'll start to lecture me again and she'll buy me this & that for me to consume so i'll get pregnant. Gosh mom!

For a meantime, i shall improve myself to be a better ummah which i hope when i get pregnant (not soon enough), i'll be a perfect mom. Bi'iznillah.

Wassalam.

Family surpriseeeee!! =)

Assalamualaikum.

Aku complain kat Qiey that on my birthday, dia kerja pulak. Abeh kerja 1 shift jer takpe jugak, kerja 2 shifts eh! Its 3pm to 7am harap maklom. Abeh aku gi jer ah kerja. Nak apply leave pun wasted.

So semalam after work, went to my SIL's place. Selalu nyer gi rumah MIL tapi yesterday tuka location since my MIL pun nak gi sana.

Once reached, aku tengok asal macam banyak makanan eh. Abeh utensils byk colour pink pulak tu. lain macammmm jer. Aku dah suspect, mesti nak celebrate birthday aku. HAHAHA! Sekali bila tengah duduk-duduk, "Assalamualaikummmm!" HOMG tu suara my family members! Dan sesungguhnyer tidak shiak lagi, it was a surprise for me.

I am soooo touched & was trying sooooo hard to not cry hahaha!! I got so tired of smiling from ear to ear. Abeh happy sey, senyum jer ah. And then bila nampak the cake, hahahaha i smiled like a 4year old girl abeh tengok jer cake tu. And then bila receive the presents, Ya Allah irritating nyer suara aku!!

Thank you so much Qiey for organising the surprise. How can i not be thankful for having u as my imaam. Thank you to my family & in-laws for joining in the special occasion. Hahaha! And the foods & the presents. Happy sangatttt!!!

I got a Guess watch from my siblings. I got alotttttt of baking stuffs from my in-laws. I got a Happycall Pan from Qiey. Wa manyak happy wohhh!! (photos will be at Instagram)

May Allah keeps showering us with His barakah & keep our bonding as close as it is now. I heart everyone of you & i really pray that we shall all gather again in Jannah.

Wassalam.

P/S I'm typing this in the train & i got teary at the same time smiling to myself. I am a crazy birthday girl.

P/S/S Adik aku ingat aku nampak dia bila dia dekat bawah but i didnt notice him ley hahaha! Selenger!

P/S/S/S My boss is on leave. Woohooo!! Macam tau jer dia that aku taknak tengok muka dia on every 13th Sept. Last year dia hantar aku gi course hahaha!

Workivasary

Assalamualaikum.

Haiz kalau ikut perangai aku dulu, ni blog hari-hari ada post. Baca balik those old blogs of mine, reminds me of alot of things sey. Mana yang outburst pasal boyfriend, mana yang aku write movie reviews, mana yang aku merayap sampai ke Bangkok. So free lah?!

Anywayssss kalau that time aku ada tudungvasary, sekarang aku ada workivasary too. Hah! Aku actually nak bilang korang yang after 3 years working in Bescon Consulting Engineers Pte (since 1st September 2009), Alhamdullillah i have been promoted from M&E Drafter to M&E Design Drafter. Yeayyy!! That additional 1 word means alot I guess. Hahahahahha!!

I remember vividly macam mana boss aku marah aku sampai aku nak nangis. He even said "If you're not interested, you can find other job. Don't waste my time here". Waste his time tau, not my time. So selfish! Hahahah!!

Seriously, 1st year in Bescon was really tough. Macam kat boot camp bro! Boss aku asik carik pasal dengan aku. Boss aku tu bukan boss betul ah. Dia boss tak betol. LOL! No lah i mean dia Chief Drafter. Not a QP (if you know what i mean, for engineering line) pon cuma dia incharge of us drafters ah. Tapi dia apa kesah, Associate Directors yang pangkat tinggi dari dia pun dia boleh makan. Cuma our bosses (total now ada 7!) jer kalau dia bual, pijak semut pun tak mati!!

But without a doubt, actually orang dia okay ah. Aku tak cakap dia baik, dia okay jer. Out of 10, aku rate dia 2. Hahahahaha!! What?? I wanted to give 1.5 ok. I'm talking about his character. Kalau cakap pasal engineering line ni, he knows everything.

Enough of him. So the main point here is, aku survived 3 years here. Ikut kan hati, aku nak blah. Tapi ikut kan imaan, InShaAllah aku sabar & bersyukur. Yang penting, aku tak jual anggur. Sesungguhnya aku tahu Allah uji aku within my strength.

Wassalam.

P/S If it is not for him, aku tak print out doa mula kerja & end kerja & paste kat tepi aku agaknyer. LOL!